Play A Part

So we took our love to the sea that night

So see if it could ever swim back

it did and it did

Four hundred thousand times

Over again

There's only so much that one can deal with at any one time; a loss of a loved one, the stress of results lingering and the self hate of not being able to deal with anything. Pity is something that comes to mind when thinking of myself at this moment in time, miserable during the best time of our lives. Purely because I cant stop thinking about somebody that used to make me happy, that now just pull at the heart strings. This time our love didn't swim back.

So Sweeet :)

Just something I'ld like to share with people :)

Opposite Of Adults (KIDS)

I once was a kid all I had was a dream
Mo money mo problems, when I get it imma pile it up
Yeah I'm dope wonderbread we can toast
So fresh how we flow, everybody get their style from us
I once was a kid with the other little kids
Now I'm whippin' up shows and 'em fans goin' wild wid us
Tell mummy I'm sorry
This life is a party
I'm never growing up

Have you ever had that moment when all you wish is that you were 12 again? When the only trouble in the world was catching cooties, when nothing could shatter your dreams, when the play ground was the extent of your social world. Its times like now I wish I was young again not to have so many worries in the world, nothing to go so very wrong. But yet again the wonders experienced as apart of growing up would never be felt. Such a hard choice, I'm thinking of peter panning it up, keeping maturity at an all time low as I experience the party of life, cause I’m never growing up.

Train In Vain

Now I got a job
But it don't pay
I need new clothes
I need somewhere to stay
But without all of these things I can do
But without your love I won't make it through

All my money currently earned through various jobs has all been going towards payments for skoolies and the year 12 formal in June, with both payments this month occurring within a week of each other. It has been quite difficult to raise funds and with $45 banked up and only $130 to go, with the payments due by the end of the week I'm hoping mums able to give me a tiny loan. I've got to admit I have been fairly stingy with my money but I guess it hasn't been enough. Just over a month now to formal how exciting.

PARTY PEOPLE!!!

[Googled]

Yacht Club Dj’s! I need to see these guys live again, Gaz and Guy are amazing mashup artists mixing classic songs with some of the not so well known music creating an amazing elixir for your ears. Playing 'Splendour in the Grass' for the 2nd year in a row, the duo has slowly started to build a huge reputation. I hope to see much success in the future for the DJing duo out of Ballarat.

PS. Did I say I really really want to see them live again?

Arrest This Heart

Damn I'm freezing
But I'm not leaving
I could stay here all night
It took me hours to find these flowers
It took me years to think of you
And when the good starts to turn
Arrest this heart of mine

How something can change so unexpectedly, right in front of your eyes in an instant. Does change occur for the better tho? My heart says yes but my head says no. A little while ago I did something nice for a friend, I had an unexpected wave of emotion over come me when confronted with their reaction, causing a new look upon the relationship at hand. Ever since I've been unsure about what to do, to tell her how I feel or just let this time take it’s coarse and leave our friendship unaffected. Hiding behind lies of normality, to avoid suspicion and confrontation as the constant fear of failure riddles me stopping me from expressing myself. What ever ends up happening will be for the better and speculations over what if will be pointless with the only choice to move forward and not linger in the past. Unfortunately it seems my heart is already under arrest until a final decision is made.

Happiness By The Kilowatt

So where has all the day gone?
And why are my lungs aching when I breathe?
Is there something wrong with the heat?
Why am I so cold?
And my heart feels sick
And it hurts when I speak
And this is not what I hoped for

Days are being lost out to school, I dream for the day I don't have to spend hours wasting my time doing something I truly hate. In the mean time I'm stuck and all it seems to be doing right now is causing me stress, over what though? My VCE enter score? The common subject that everyone at school seems to be talking about. People are struggling to balance their lives between school aspects, social aspects and everything else this year throws at them. But as stress press's down on all of us, it seems to be showing more with some than others, with some seek help as others are letting it build up. Just today I sought help to deal with my recent sleeping troubles, a long chat with the school nurse and a booklet later I hope to deal with the issue at hand. But the cause of this problem is still a bit cloudy, it could be slight social tension at school between others or just purely VCE it’s self. I just know that this year is not what I hoped for.